Anonymous

Dear Anonymous


I am very happy that i have at least some readers that frequently visit the page and leave what they think behind, so i know what to improve on and things of that sort. But this one is killing me, on the last 3 or so post you have been the only commentator, and leaving what seems to be almost words of wisdom behind. Now i think i have a very good idea about who you are, but there are some things that have thrown me for a loop. One of your clues that you left behind was I the comment about the essay I read in class titled “o Rotten Gotham.” Now you see, I am pretty sure that we were at a campfire in one of our close friends backyards when you put one of the ipod headphones in my ear and told me to listen to this speech given by Baz Luhrmann, that was recently made into a song. The speech was call “sunscreen,” and one of the best lines of advice from it was(see quote at bottom)…. So if I am right about my anonymous reader, I am letting you know you better think your comments through a little harder if you still wish to remain so.. :)
Goodnight ******

"Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth."

I Met The Walrus

This is one of the best short films I have seen put together on you tube, It is quite amazing the things that this whole you tube craze has brought out. Peoples talents are being exposed to millions of people all over the world. Things like this are being created for contests promoted by you tube itself. Things like you tube are bringing out things that we would never have seen before, and I am extremely grateful that I live in the age of yotube, it has brought many laughs, Goosebumps, shivers, and uneasiness to my life.

On the topic of John Lennon, I just randomly started searching his name and I have read some extremely interesting things about the man. Any one you creates that big of a deal, usually has some really stupid ideas, or some really good ideas that some important people find stupid. And personally I love to listen to everything the man has to say, I see him as a very wise and thoughtful man…

Working Class Hero

Go ahead and take the time to play and watch this video, it is quite possibly one of the best I have seen. These lyrics of this song just plain amaze me. As I take a look a little closer at them line by line you start to understand exactly what he is saying. John Lennon is his name, you might of heard of him, but he is quite the character. As you can sense in not only the tone of his voice, but all the video and the lyrics, he questions about everything you could in society. I havent figured out yet if I like this song so much because of the way it is out together, or because I absolutely believe everything word this man is saying. Its crazy to think about but, I do think he has so many valid points. There are a couple of lines that just make my head spin with how correct it is, “they hate you if you clever, and despise a fool.” As soon as I hear that line my train of thought automatically diverts to school. All of these lines relate somehow to school and it just one of those things that gets me thinking so in depth about everything that is happening around me….. Listen to this song and TRY.. TRY not question everything you have ever been taught.

Heroes

As I was sitting down on a friends couch watching the finial seconds of the football season tick away, I started reminiscing on how much I missed college football, and remembered why I liked it so much more than the NFL stuff. As I searched you tube for some of the more insane highlights from this college football season I stumbled across one of the best montages I have ever seen. This excellent clips from the 2008/2009 season are put on accompanied by a new song called “heroes” by David Cook. This song is absolutely perfect for the recap of the football season.

Gets me thinking a lot about the words said in this song, talks about how all these “heroes” come and go, and it is quite a powerful thing to watch, as we see countless of these athletes, some only a couple of years older than myself, become such heroes in my eyes and the eyes of so many. Its incredible to see some of these images. The one that extra special is the clip where the Cincy wide out Gilyard ran into the stands after a ball and ran into a kid with the bear-cat colors all over his face. The kid cried for a bit, but was completely overcome with happiness when Gilyard came back over and gave the kid a hug and rubbed his head. The kid was soon surrounded with others his same age, and was even shown giving some autographs himself.

But the most important thing to remember his how these heroes come and go, and how they get 4 years to show what they can do, and they have so much pride in what they do its insane. The most special thing to see is a college athlete giving his all towards a goal, with no reward waiting for him, expect that of a trophy that goes to the university and maybe some bragging rights…. I hope college football is around forever.

O Rotten Gotham

As I read this essay assigned to us in my language arts class I grew extremely fond of it and started to look closely into this idea presented by Tom Wolfe. In this essay Tom speaks about a variety of issues that affect the entire human race. This is probably one of the most in depth and interesting essays that I have ever had the privilege to read. Tom Wolfe wrote this in 1968, and has a very “recent” tone about him. He most talks about the over crowding of the great New York City. It is amazing to me that a man back in this time period could have such wisdom about everything, people, the world and future problems.

Many of the ideas that Tom speaks about seem to relate to the one of the lowest animals on the food chain; rats. This man described all of what he thinks about humans, in rat terms. This is perfect even if we, as humans, don’t like be compared with these creatures we behave social and fundamentally a lot alike. This is maybe an eye opener for some of the people in the world that forget we are animals too and ferocious ones at that. One of the most interesting techniques this author uses is the way that he refers to humans as animals, like I said before. He always calls them humans, like we are some sort of strange creature you can find in the swamps. This is a very affective way of making a point.

This was almost a disturbing essay to read and analyze. It was one of those essays where I read in and every point that is made I can relate it to something that had happened or is happening. One of the best sections of the essay is when Tom Wolfe talks refers to “behavioral Sink” that we all live in. I take this sink to be symbolizing the world that we all live on. He talks about the over crowding of this sink and the damaging affects it has on every single living thing that is in ceramic prison. This essay was written so long ago but now comes into play more than it ever has. There are so many fundamentally wrong things with us humans right now it makes me sick. This just points out more, the fact that we are reminding ourselves of rats. It is a tad scary to think about, the one animal (us) at the top of the food chain, and the one at the bottom (rats) are starting to become similar in so many ways…

Ugh...

Here is one more of my random ideals that I have thought about over the last couple of hours…. This one was kind of came up in a weird way, I just woke up on this Saturday afternoon, and I was trying to recall this vivid dream that I have. I had no luck, but I remember the big picture. I think when it was in this dream It was kind of related to the recent movie “yes man,” which in my opinion was a real good movie. It seems as though all the things that you decide not too do, is because you think it will make tomorrow worse for some reason. I feel like a lot of people worry about tomorrow then they worry about right now. My perfect example of this is summer time in cedar rapids Iowa of a unemployed high school student. This quite possibly could be the best times of my life, in every way, I, personally, don’t have to worry one bit how what I do today will affect the next. That is the one statement where I think I person can come true happiness. You seem to be living for the day, not stressing or planning on what is going on tomorrow. But as I looked closer at this, this day in age, this society, this culture we can not do one thing that just doesn’t matter. Every last decision we make has an impact on what our world will be like tomorrow. This is scary to me, to understand that those summers that I cherish so much, where I can really become happy, are most likely gone. As you grow you cant help but to live your live for tomorrow, and it truly is a tragedy to see people living to today for tomorrow…… have a good day….

“Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning.”- Einstein

Lame....

Today as I woke up at 7:30, later than usual, I stalled a bit before rolling out of bed for about 5 min and stared up at the ceiling and just thought about what I have been doing for the last 13 years of my life. I have been basically in the same mode since kindergarten. Sure there are always sometimes when the schedule takes a turn for the better of the worse, but it is all basically the same. As senior year rolls around I am beginning to think what I am I doing..? I think this often when I see so much of the world on TV and on the computer. I just think to my self, I need to be doing something different. I need something new, and soon, this time right now is so extremely tedious and boring I can’t stand it for much longer. I am so glad that I have a couple of friends that feel the same way. I feel like we reach a point where you just sort of retain a negative stand point on about everything, this is now. I walk around and start to realize why did I ever like this person, or why did I even try to be friends with them. Right now I am confused if people change or I am the one who is changing…

Audience

I was asked a question about who i write for... and it really got me thinking carefully and i struggled to come up with a clear consist answer. I started this assignment as just that , an assignment, but as i started to really take interest in this way to show everyone who you are it soon changed... I started to really get into the fact that people all over could be reading what i was writing and that really made me feel good. I think it breaks some barriers that i couldn't break in a "real-life" meeting with one of my readers. People no matter who you are find some way to stereotype you no matter how you dress or what you look like... and i think this works to my advantage i like the way people come up to me and say i would of never expected that to come from you.. this makes them kind of realize that a lot of people aren't that bad once you sit down and get to know them... so in a way i write from myself in order to get out some of my feeling and learn from experiences i have had. But i also write for everyone else, because in some ways i would like to in a way, a very small way, teach all people some lessons. And some advice leave some comments on here and anywhere else you read something you like..... it means alot

have a good day.. :)

Ooo... Sunday Nights

As I sit here in the o’ so normal spot at 12:30 on a Sunday night, surrounded by constant music ranging from Dj Tiesto to the eagles I have no choice but to reflect on the all things that have happened to be over this “holiday break” that we have come to know. I witness so many things that raise so my questions to me, but I am unable to remember them for when I get home to blog about them…. I need to improve upon this. But one of the main topics that raised my eyebrows a bit is the whole celebration of the new year. This got me really thinking, as I was standing in a room with none of my close friends but all of my new friends. Many things were going through my head at this time, one is the fact that all of us have a limited time on this earth and was questioning the fact upon why we celebrate yet another year gone? I soon realized… why not? Why not celebrate this occasion, nothing Is going to stop it from happening. Embrace things you cannot stop, and learn quickly that you cannot stop them.

I also noticed something truly insane… as I was sitting in a car with one of my new best friends in the entire world I looked over and thought about how we met… I started to try and piece together my night and try to exactly pinpoint how I ended where I did that night. I came to the conclusion that I cant recall at all what I did or why I decided to go where I did. As I did this I started to think about all the little actions that we make (some subconsciously) and how much they affect your lives. Its insane to me to think that I cant remember how I ended up at the house where I met this person… was it a text message, was it the person riding in the car with me.? What if I didn’t go? Where would I be at now instead? I am just purely amazed by the fact that the things so small that everyone just brushes off could make such a monumental difference in ones life. Truly amazing, make note of all the things you do today…. Take some chances, say yes to something (thanks Jim Carrey), do something you wouldn’t normally, just remember that everything that you do affects something that will happen later…. Always remember that….. Sleep well :)

I believe that we are solely responsible for our choices, and we have to accept the consequences of every deed, word, and thought throughout our lifetime.-Elisabeth Kübler-Ross:

When I Grow Up

When I grow up is one of those things that you hear come out of countless peoples mouths, and I always seem to catch myself thinking about when they going to actually believe they are grown. I think that most of them will probably see themselves most grown up when they accomplish what ever it is they want the most. But to me that seems wrong, I think there are multiple things that have to happen in order to make yourself believe that you are grown up.

“We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations.”- Anais Nin

Right now I am real unsure about all the things necessary to learn and to realize that you have grown, but I honestly can say that I have encountered some of them. And by no means, am I saying that I am growing up too fast, or trying to grow up too fast, I am just saying that there have been times in last couple of days which make me feel uneasy and more “grown” about things.

First, Yesterday one of my close friends and I went to go look around at the mall and ran into a old friend that no longer attends the same high school as we do. Back when he did attend the same high school he sure had gotten into his fair share of trouble, as he will tell you, and that’s most of the reason he doesn’t attend anymore. But as we got talking about school, future plans, friends I noticed a huge shift in everything I thought I knew about the kid. He went from some one who could care less about what other people think about him, to telling us he hopes no one is holding anything against him at school. And now is getting all kinds of opportunities to extend his education through the help of the army. After shaking his hand and a honest “good luck,” I walked away with a weird feeling that I have witnessed a complete change in a person that I would of never thought would of.

To exist is to change, to change is to mature, to mature is to go on creating oneself endlessly.- Henri Bergson

I suppose there is one more little thing that got thinking about while staring off into space in either math or science class, and that’s my views on teachers and these adults that all of us kids are supposed to be learning all these important life lessons from… what a joke. Its weird to me for me to finally be able to look at a teacher or some one of authority and relate them to someone I know. Now, don’t get me wrong I do respect all of them and there are many, many good people teaching around here but the ones that I had been looking up too ever since middle school are kind of reminding me of the some of the jerks that I hang around with. I could throw these guys farther then I trust them , which let me tell you is quite an uneasy feeling.. HAHA Have a good night :)

Trust him not with your secrets, who, when left alone in your room, turns over your papers.- Johnann Kaspar Lavater

My Influences

As I have been trying to keep up with my blog as much as possible, with my busy hectic life, I start to realize what makes me look at the world differently. Sure some writers can sit down at any point in their busy day and spit out or right down what seems to be a flawless piece of writing. This is frustrating to me, because as I try to come up with some new ideas I always feel like I am coming up short. I started this blog to help me practice the one thing I have been constantly told I am not good at, expressing my feelings. I have found that this is an extremely hard task to try and learn. I will admit I feel like I am getting better, but it seems to take an actual event to “jumpstart” my thought process. I strive to be the kind of person that can share his important feelings any time he needs to, or to be able to tell the special people in your life how you feel about them, or to blog on a daily basis about seemingly nothing….. Have a good day.. :)

Now What...?

I experienced an extremely difficult situation to understand this week, i have been thinking about it non- stop for the past couple of days. Actually thinking about it to the point where it is hard to sleep and makes my stomach have a constant nervous feeling, it is a terrible thing. This was my experience, my best friend for about 5 months and i are now not speaking, not visiting, not communicating in any way. This can really do some harm to the moral of any human being. Its hard for me to grasp the fact of breaking up...

This was one of the most difficult experiences i have been through thus far in my short inexperienced life. The thing that really makes me wonder is how a simple title, "boyfriend" and "girlfriend" change the way the society as a whole looks at you. Its and idea, a concept, a word, not a tangible object like a wedding ring. But this title has more power than you would ever believe. This title of boyfriend/girlfriend makes you choose what you do with you free time differently, makes you spend money differently, makes other people look completely different at you. And the most powerful of all turns people completely against you when it is removed. The thing that i am having such a hard time with, is the fact the my best friend that quite possibly knows more about me than even my parents, is just gone. That gives me such an uneasy feeling it makes me sick. The only reason i decided that this "relationship" was not gonna work was because of distance. Then i start to realize that this is quite depressing... I in reality lost one of my best friends and mutual friends because of an hour car ride. For some reason it doesn't stack up for me. I guess what i am getting at is that relationships should be saved for those who are a little more mature, and in the time in their life when having a significant other is vital. Because what you get out of it, which is a lot, is not worth what you are going to lose...... have a good night :/

From one of my best friends... Do what makes you happy :)