Trust..?

Again another Sunday night at 11:30 sitting here attempting to do some pointless book report, for a book that I didn’t even read, and I cant think about anything for more than 3 seconds straight. This post might be a ramble, but this is what I am thinking about right now.

First of all as I have been browsing over all of my peers blogs I am noticing a trend in them. I have came across about 3 or 4 that have been related to trust.( I will link them if I remember) But as I start to think about this topic no wonder this is such a big deal in peoples lives, especially teen-agers. I have seen many examples of things this last week that has kind of stopped me and made me think. People at heart I think believe that everyone is good, I really do, I will admit to you right now that I give everyone the benefit of the doubt when it comes to trust. And that has bit me in the ass many of times… but that’s a different post for a different day. But when you tell someone something that you don’t want anyone else to hear, is just not a good idea. Secrets weigh so much on somebody its insane. You cant explain it, the fact that you know something some one else doesn’t is too much power for some people. These I think are the very weak minded. No offense to any bloggers out there that make there posts over the newest celeb. gossip but come on now, you are the very person that we all hated in high school.

I feel like that if what you need to get out is so important you better have made the a very concise evaluation of the person that you are telling this too. And I feel like if you really really don’t want anyone to know something you just wont tell anyone. But that’s just a thought…

Trust-the trait of believing in the honesty and reliability of others; "the experience destroyed his trust and personal dignity" (Irony that the example of trust refers to it being broken?)
Good night

When I Grow Up

When I grow up is one of those things that you hear come out of countless peoples mouths, and I always seem to catch myself thinking about when they going to actually believe they are grown. I think that most of them will probably see themselves most grown up when they accomplish what ever it is they want the most. But to me that seems wrong, I think there are multiple things that have to happen in order to make yourself believe that you are grown up.

“We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations.”- Anais Nin

Right now I am real unsure about all the things necessary to learn and to realize that you have grown, but I honestly can say that I have encountered some of them. And by no means, am I saying that I am growing up too fast, or trying to grow up too fast, I am just saying that there have been times in last couple of days which make me feel uneasy and more “grown” about things.

First, Yesterday one of my close friends and I went to go look around at the mall and ran into a old friend that no longer attends the same high school as we do. Back when he did attend the same high school he sure had gotten into his fair share of trouble, as he will tell you, and that’s most of the reason he doesn’t attend anymore. But as we got talking about school, future plans, friends I noticed a huge shift in everything I thought I knew about the kid. He went from some one who could care less about what other people think about him, to telling us he hopes no one is holding anything against him at school. And now is getting all kinds of opportunities to extend his education through the help of the army. After shaking his hand and a honest “good luck,” I walked away with a weird feeling that I have witnessed a complete change in a person that I would of never thought would of.

To exist is to change, to change is to mature, to mature is to go on creating oneself endlessly.- Henri Bergson

I suppose there is one more little thing that got thinking about while staring off into space in either math or science class, and that’s my views on teachers and these adults that all of us kids are supposed to be learning all these important life lessons from… what a joke. Its weird to me for me to finally be able to look at a teacher or some one of authority and relate them to someone I know. Now, don’t get me wrong I do respect all of them and there are many, many good people teaching around here but the ones that I had been looking up too ever since middle school are kind of reminding me of the some of the jerks that I hang around with. I could throw these guys farther then I trust them , which let me tell you is quite an uneasy feeling.. HAHA Have a good night :)

Trust him not with your secrets, who, when left alone in your room, turns over your papers.- Johnann Kaspar Lavater