The New Chapter

I am back trying to keep up a little better on this now... I think so much about stuff all the time i think it is time for me to let some of it go and spill out some of my guts on this... hope you are still reading :)

Tonight was one of my friends last day in town and a couple of us went out for a bite to eat and remember some of the good times from o so long ago(like 2 years ago). Then i really started to think about things, about all sorts if things and it made me a little weary at first but then the good memories kicked in and i have never laughed harder at a dinner than i did tonight, which is a fabulous memory in itself. But one of the first subject that my mind made victim was the thought of how fast time goes, and how absolutely terrified i have become that i missing something so important. But i find comfort knowing that i am not the only struggling teenager dealing with this situation. Another thing that my mind started on was how it scary how close friends become, i have so much respect for 3 friends that can stay so close for 4 years and go through the torture that high school is. I envy that so much, sure there is tough times but "the sun always comes up tomorrow" or so they say. Now just entering college is a completely new experience that everyone i know is going through, and some are taking a tougher road then most by traveling half away across the country, and i also have the utmost respect for that as well... And with that i was driving away from one of my best friends from my high school days i cant help but to get a little worked up while remembering some of the greatest times that my life has brought to me thus far. It will never get easier to remember the past... And isn't weird that you look back now and remember how pissed you were that nothing was going on and ended up sitting in the parking lot listening to music and how that turned into some of the most defining most of your life...

Goodluck and never forget where you came from....

Life moves pretty fast. You don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.

Anonymous

Dear Anonymous


I am very happy that i have at least some readers that frequently visit the page and leave what they think behind, so i know what to improve on and things of that sort. But this one is killing me, on the last 3 or so post you have been the only commentator, and leaving what seems to be almost words of wisdom behind. Now i think i have a very good idea about who you are, but there are some things that have thrown me for a loop. One of your clues that you left behind was I the comment about the essay I read in class titled “o Rotten Gotham.” Now you see, I am pretty sure that we were at a campfire in one of our close friends backyards when you put one of the ipod headphones in my ear and told me to listen to this speech given by Baz Luhrmann, that was recently made into a song. The speech was call “sunscreen,” and one of the best lines of advice from it was(see quote at bottom)…. So if I am right about my anonymous reader, I am letting you know you better think your comments through a little harder if you still wish to remain so.. :)
Goodnight ******

"Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it’s worth."

Lame....

Today as I woke up at 7:30, later than usual, I stalled a bit before rolling out of bed for about 5 min and stared up at the ceiling and just thought about what I have been doing for the last 13 years of my life. I have been basically in the same mode since kindergarten. Sure there are always sometimes when the schedule takes a turn for the better of the worse, but it is all basically the same. As senior year rolls around I am beginning to think what I am I doing..? I think this often when I see so much of the world on TV and on the computer. I just think to my self, I need to be doing something different. I need something new, and soon, this time right now is so extremely tedious and boring I can’t stand it for much longer. I am so glad that I have a couple of friends that feel the same way. I feel like we reach a point where you just sort of retain a negative stand point on about everything, this is now. I walk around and start to realize why did I ever like this person, or why did I even try to be friends with them. Right now I am confused if people change or I am the one who is changing…

Ooo... Sunday Nights

As I sit here in the o’ so normal spot at 12:30 on a Sunday night, surrounded by constant music ranging from Dj Tiesto to the eagles I have no choice but to reflect on the all things that have happened to be over this “holiday break” that we have come to know. I witness so many things that raise so my questions to me, but I am unable to remember them for when I get home to blog about them…. I need to improve upon this. But one of the main topics that raised my eyebrows a bit is the whole celebration of the new year. This got me really thinking, as I was standing in a room with none of my close friends but all of my new friends. Many things were going through my head at this time, one is the fact that all of us have a limited time on this earth and was questioning the fact upon why we celebrate yet another year gone? I soon realized… why not? Why not celebrate this occasion, nothing Is going to stop it from happening. Embrace things you cannot stop, and learn quickly that you cannot stop them.

I also noticed something truly insane… as I was sitting in a car with one of my new best friends in the entire world I looked over and thought about how we met… I started to try and piece together my night and try to exactly pinpoint how I ended where I did that night. I came to the conclusion that I cant recall at all what I did or why I decided to go where I did. As I did this I started to think about all the little actions that we make (some subconsciously) and how much they affect your lives. Its insane to me to think that I cant remember how I ended up at the house where I met this person… was it a text message, was it the person riding in the car with me.? What if I didn’t go? Where would I be at now instead? I am just purely amazed by the fact that the things so small that everyone just brushes off could make such a monumental difference in ones life. Truly amazing, make note of all the things you do today…. Take some chances, say yes to something (thanks Jim Carrey), do something you wouldn’t normally, just remember that everything that you do affects something that will happen later…. Always remember that….. Sleep well :)

I believe that we are solely responsible for our choices, and we have to accept the consequences of every deed, word, and thought throughout our lifetime.-Elisabeth Kübler-Ross: